{this post is part of Five-Minute Friday at Lisa-Jo Baker}

How it works: Write on one word for five minutes. No editing. Then link up your post with the rest of the brave writers on Five-Minute Friday and encourage them by reading and commenting on what they’ve shared. {All the details for how to play along are here.}

Today’s word: Writer…

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It is late here. After 11:00 p.m. I have a sick four-year-old little girl who is sleeping fitfully. Just like she did last night. Her six-year-old sister had her turn just two nights ago.

And so I sit here, in the dark, with my laptop, writing.

Writing.

That word makes my heart beat a little faster and tears prick the rims of my eyes.

It’s hard, this balancing act of me as mama and me as writer. Me as wife and me as writer.

Me as writer.

Really?

Me as writer.

That idea. The process of writing.

It resonates deeply and encourages greatly and inspires mightily.

And scares me. Scares me so much. Scares me beyond words.

When I was younger, I tossed around the word writer without thought. It was easy then. Finding the time. Tapping into my stories. Writing.

It is still easy. The writing. It flows when I let it. When I find time.

When I take the time.

It’s finding the time with which I struggle.

It’s the believing in myself with which I wrestle.

It’s the balancing act that causes me to stumble.

To doubt.

And yet, here I sit, in the dark, with my laptop, writing.

I am a writer
I am a writer

Because it is not what I do. It is who I am.

It is who God created me to be. And I will not doubt him.

Yes, I may doubt myself sometimes.

But I will not doubt him.

I will write through the darkness. I will write through the fear.

I am a writer.

I am a writer.

And so I write.

And so I write.

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8 thoughts on “Any Time is the Write Time

  1. Yes! I can identify with the concept that God calls some of us to write. And so a writer I am, just like you! And I will write – through that doubt that keeps assailing … “There are so many people out there who think they have something important to say. Do you really believe that what you write is significant to anyone other than yourself?” Yes, because the Lord put it on my heart to write. As you say, Judith, “I will not doubt Him.” Write on, sister!

    1. Hi Ginny Liz. Thank you for taking the time to stop by and read my words and leave a thoughtful comment. I appreciate your encouraging words! May you continue bless and encourage others and honor God with your words and your writing.

  2. I have the same thoughts as you. It is truly a delight to write my story, but also a struggle. It is a challenge to “legitimize” my own writing. Comparison is an ugly trap! “I will write through the darkness. I will write through the fear.” I love that. Visiting from FMF! Blessings!

    1. Thank you, Anne, for taking the time to stop by from FMF; it’s a big group and I appreciate your visit. Even more, I appreciate your thoughts and your encouragement.

      Keep writing your story! I look forward to reading more from you.

    1. Thank you, Jessica, for stopping by on Five-Minute-Friday and for well wishes for my little girl.

      May your writing journey be filled with many small joys that continue to encourage you and inspire you.

      blessings to you!

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