My son, do not let wisdom and understanding out of your sight,
preserve sound judgment and discretion;
they will be life for you,
an ornament to grace your neck.
Then you will go on your way in safety,
and your foot will not stumble.
When you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. (Proverbs 3:21-24)
(29/365 days of Fear Not)
Lately I’ve been having the strangest dreams. Some are more disturbing than strange. They involve evil people and being chased and becoming lost. And they disrupt my sleep, leaving me feeling disoriented and anxious until I remind myself that they are not real and I reconnect with my surroundings. I have to ground myself in the reality of what I know is true in order to dismiss what is not real.
And that’s similar to how I feel when I am hit or miss, lukewarm, and too sporadic in spending time with Jesus. When I don’t make Him a priority, I feel unfocused and disoriented and so much more anxious. I feel lost and wandering and have difficulty getting life done.
It used to take me some time to realize what was going on when I was a younger version of me. I’d pursue several other things before I finally set about seeking God’s presence and reconnecting my heart, my soul and my mind to Him.
When I am not tethered to His truth or to Him through His word, my life is out of balance and my judgment suffers. I begin making poor choices and heaping difficult consequences upon difficult consequences.
It doesn’t take me long to notice that imbalance these days and the name of Jesus flows from my heart and my tongue often and quite readily when I sense the first stumbling steps of my thinking and notice familiar fear creeping into my mind.
Wisdom, discretion, understanding, sound judgment.
Truly these are gems to treasure as we move through our days. Truly they keep our feet upon the path so that we will not stumble.
Even in the face of obstacles or difficult circumstances, they lead me always in the direction of God because although He will never leave me nor forsake me, I too often wander off from His ways.
But there is nothing more comforting than His presence when my day comes to its close and His words and His promises lead me into sweet sleep. I can rest in peace no matter what the day held because He is there. He is with me and I will not fear.
Take that, fear.